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. [19 Sep 2009|08:00am] i had a long LJ post before this but thought it was unnecessary to show it haha. * * * i've been out almost every night of this week, going to mandaluyong with regie. most of the time it was for cine europa in shang; sometimes it was just for hanging out and talking in the food court or walking around. one time, we decided to watch 'up!' instead of catching c.e.; it's a very very lovely movie! regie's no longer working in benilde because they are basically unfair to him. for now, he is free but he's applying to work in ateneo. i guess we'll be seeing each other less by the time he gets accepted. but it's fine with me, i'll be awfully busy with acads and LSCS work; i'll probably go hiatus on the others or just show up sometimes and do what i can. besides, i love going to katipunan area. :) * * * mom gave me a new journal two weeks ago. strangely, i manage to write on it everyday. * * * i wish my blog had a purpose other than a repository of my thoughts haha. post comment

i can't take care of cats. [09 Sep 2009|09:42am] [ mood | anxious ] last night, my brother brought home a fluffy persian gray teenage cat. it's very cute! it's very fluffy. i would've loved it more... ... if it wasn't so stinky. its tail got wet and the cat pooped so you can imagine that the poop got smeared in its fur and i don't like it. i tried playing with it by taking it out of its cage and letting it run around the house. bad idea. it kept on going inside kuya's room and sniffing the things inside there. i also tried wiping the poop off but i couldn't because it just keeps on moving around and i'm afraid the cat would lunge at me if i touch... something it wouldn't want me to touch. it would be more fun if someone would help me or if i knew how to take care of a cat. :( minotaur is pissed and so is my mom. they want it out. i kinda agree, no one can take care of it here. minotaur is doing soooooo much already and everyone else is out by day (except for me during the break). and minotaur kinda hates things that mess up her laundry, like the cat's poop (its smell got stuck to her laundry where my brother placed it near; i had to transfer it somewhere else). 2 comments|post comment

. [02 Sep 2009|06:40am] [ mood | complacent ] Yesterday, my cousin Joyce went back to Los Angeles with her husband Andy and their baby Aidan. I miss them already, especially Aidan, who loves Minotaur (our maid who used to be my yaya and whom i still call 'yaya') very dearly. Seriously, the two are best friends! Minotaur's really good with babies, they love her! I guess you could think of her as Juliet's nurse or nanny hahaha. The other night, I was in 19 East with Kuya Polo, Ate Joyce, and Andy. It's a really nice place and I'd love to go out with friends there! *ahem* When we went there, there weren't a lot of people because it was Monday night. We pretty much had the place to ourselves. * * * I want to go back to Los Angeles and visit my relatives! :( I miss walking around there, hahaha! Next time, I'll make sure not to lose my SD card; in fact, I'll only keep one with a big big memory so that I won't have to change SD cards. post comment

LSCS reboot. [01 Sep 2009|10:47am] i'm still canvassing for transpo and venue. i've been sad a few days now because i'm getting stressed. now i decided, fuck it. i'm just gonna do everything i can to make it work and stop worrying. post comment

i'm supposed to be studying but... [30 Aug 2009|04:30pm] - i ended up watching yellow submarine and virgin suicides - i don't feel like studying anymore - i feel really, really sad and empty - i feel like i'm missing out on a lot of things. i'm thinking too much. i tried doing other things i have to do but... things just won't cooperate! it's not all my fault i don't do things. >.> maybe i should take a walk around. i dunno. i miss my ipod. dad gave me his scratched ipod shuffle. i'm gonna call it 'pusa'. post comment

. [28 Aug 2009|08:51pm] [ mood | uncomfortable ] i'm not in a good mood. * * * today, i feel like i did or said a lot of things i didn't mean to do or say. i could try to make up but i'm really tired of explaining myself, it's gonna end up looking the same way anyway. post comment

Programming is *pretty* bad for health. [24 Aug 2009|07:52pm] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | Midlake: "Young Bride" ] My neck hurts sort of a lot, I can't bend it backward as much as I want to. The muscles in my back are knotting from the helpless slouching I make when I work. I'm having more pimples and larger eyebags. I lost 9 pounds. Since the start of this term. Konting tiis na lang. Two more nights of little sleep. Must be exempted from COMPILE (Compiler Theory) finals!!! it's not like i'm really good anyway. * * * OMG, I do NOT remember being absent from ADVANDB! Correct me if I'm wrong. We have this plus 0.5 if we don't fail and we don't have any absence. Alloy was given plus 0.5 for not being absent. When he told miss he DID have two absences, she was all "Meehhh di ko naman napansin eh okay lang yuuuuun." Gaga. Oh well. She's a very messy witch of a prof.   EDIT: I did go absent! Hahaha I kinda remember now, I asked my classmate about this. Anyway, she's pretty nice and funny, just really messy and fickle. Annoyingly so.   post comment

strange dreams. [18 Aug 2009|09:16am] 1. Somebody wanted to make perfume out of me (we watched "Perfume: The Story of a Murderer" in HUMAART). Actually, the essence had to come from my left foot. 2. I was pregnant. I could feel the baby move inside me, press against my stomach. * * * I slept pretty heavily. I woke up with sweat and a drool. Last night, at around 9 pm, I decided to sleep because I couldn't be productive amidst a bad mood. It's an early time to sleep but whatever. * * * post comment

it's not my pms but i feel like crap. [17 Aug 2009|08:08pm] [ mood | indescribable ] i feel like i've been doing something wrong and that i will keep on doing something wrong. i don't know what it is, exactly. it's painful and sickening. it's scary. this morning, i had to hide under my blankets to shut the feeling out. now i'm unmotivated for anything. i've been like this since saturday night. post comment

My 3 year old iPod Nano exploded [16 Aug 2009|07:30am] Strangely enough, it still works. But now I'm afraid to charge it. * * * The air smells like a popped Vitamin E Gel capsule.   1 comment|post comment

good morning. [16 Aug 2009|06:36am] i could hear "this charming man" by the smiths from my brother's room. in the meantime, the smell of coffee is making me and my stomach very nostalgic. it's about 6:30 am. i remember waking up at 2:30 am to program but i went back to sleep. i really want to work but i can't; maybe i'm a little too tired, and i just want to finish other work first. * * * it's difficult to be a fairy nowadays. post comment

today's notebook-paper art... [15 Aug 2009|08:17pm]   The photo is not very good but I only used the webcam of my small laptop :3. The border/frame is made up of words and ramblings, all crossed out and covered by scratchy lines. post comment

i let you pass by once, but now i didn't. and now you're mine. [11 Aug 2009|10:17pm] what am i talking about? xD no, not some silly boy. besides, i already kinda have one anyway (hi Regie!). i'm talking about this wonderful rainbow notebook in this post, which has probably caught the attention of your eyes even before you read what i typed. xD i saw this in toy kingdom while browsing the teeny bopper section for Lisa Frank things. then i saw this. the wonderful rainbow composition book! but i had to let it go, because i didn't want to spend unnecessarily and i was also saving up at that time. the second time, there was a different arrangement in toy kindom so i couldn't find it. then this afternoon... on my way to meet up with my cousin kim in greenbelt, i remembered this notebook and became determined enough to buy it. so i went to toy kingdom, checked it out, looked for it, and found it!!! here's a doodle i made in it. :3 it's called "oh, there you are!" i love this notebook! :D actually, i love notebooks as much as others love bags and shoes hahahaha!   4 comments|post comment

a song stuck inside my head [11 Aug 2009|01:56am] [ music | The Submarines: "You, Me, and the Burgeoisie" ] "And here we are in the center of the first world It's laid out for us, who are we to break down? Everyday we wake up We choose Love We choose light And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart Plastic Bottles Imported Water Cars we drive wherever we want to Clothes we buy it's sweatshop labor Drugs from corporate enablers We're not living the Good life Unless we're fighting the Good fight You and Me just trying to get it right..." * * * I only found out later on that this song was used in an iPhone commercial. pretty ironic, in my opinion. [EDIT] an analysis on the song: http://marcelthemaoist.blogspot.com/2009/07/you-me-and-bourgeoisie.html * it's a good read. :) his perspective made me understand the song a little better. post comment

one machine project down, one more to go. [11 Aug 2009|01:36am] two things i hate about programming: 1. it can take a long time to solve a possibly simple problem (i.e. debugging) 2. there can be difficulties in deciding how to approach a problem. * * * i'm a struggling computer science student. i simply have too many interests to be passionate about this field. i love computer hardware and software apps; i love (observing/critiquing/looking up) web designs. i just lost my love for programming/coding; i couldn't make time for it anymore unless i have to. -___- last term, i wanted to shift so badly but i didn't know where to shift to; i guess it's just a stage. i enjoy computer science anyway. i just want to do... other things too. post comment

now i'm serious [08 Aug 2009|09:58am] i barely had sleep but that's nothing. i just want to get my work over with. -___- i've been terribly slow in learning something kinda new to me, and i can't finish this without learning it. T__T i've been aimlessly going around the Internet in hopes of finding something helpful to speed up my progress. alas, i haven't found as much as i wanted to. * * * can't rant that much. i need to work. well i've got the entire day, but the longer i take, the more hope i'm losing in myself. :( post comment

shoot me, i'm being lazy. [06 Aug 2009|06:57pm] The weather is cold. I just want to bask in the soft bed sheets. I keep on prancing away from work. I'm a bad cat. I shall return. post comment

R.I.P. Cory Aquino [02 Aug 2009|09:46am] January 25, 1933 - August 1, 2009 I don't know you that well, but you were an inspiration to many many Filipinos. At least your suffering is now over and you will be rested. And you will be with God. :)   post comment

Irresponsibility [30 Jul 2009|09:16am] I feel sick to my stomach for being irresponsible. I don't know what got into me. 1. For some reason, I thought there would be no CDr tomorrow (Computer Donation Drive, this LSCS-DLSP activity where we refurbish old computers of La Salle and donate them afterwards); but there is a CDr! In fact, it's every Friday! 2. Because of number 1, I forgot to ask Inna or Sir Pogz to confirm earlier this week if there's any tomorrow. I mean, I had the idea of asking 'later on' because I'm doing something else. But no I didn't! 3. So now I'm fretting because there are no confirmed volunteers for tomorrow :( Just two (one in the morning, one in the afternoon). NEVER AGAIN. never again!!! D: post comment

I'm not going to school today... [30 Jul 2009|08:14am] ... because I'm going to study for ADVANDB (Advanced Database Concepts). It's our second departmental exam tomorrow and I want to do much much better than the first one, which I failed miserably xD. But I have to go to school later anyway, because I have an interview with Ate Tina in COSCA. I hope it goes well! post comment

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